Well my Dad was not an Elder! My Mother not a pioneer! We went because we had to.(going through the motions) I did not have a book study growing up I had been pretty much left on my own to raise myself and help my 3 younger brothers. My mother was never happy with my Dad kids life etc etc etc. She blamed everything on everyone else. She and my Dad would drink their problems away. I would have to dig out beer bottles out of the washing machine to do my brothers and my laundry.
The only time I ever made my Mother happy is when I went to meetings. I did it because I got my Mother to love me and pay attention to me for the first time in my life. So I did it for that. Sometimes in life you do for others and not for yourself. I believed in it because that's all I ever knew and I was told to believe in it.
Apple does not fall far from the tree. I am just glad I was kicked away.