Yes I know. There are umpteen threads about the memorial already. Why another one, right?
Did anyone else ever get a weird feeling as the emblems were passed? Even when I was a hardcore dub, I always had a strange feeling in my gut. Back then, I could never figure out why I felt this way. I knew that what we were doing was the correct way and that Christendom's way was dead wrong.
That feeling became even more pronounced as the emblems were passed between the MS's and elders at the end of the passing. I always thought to myself that they were handling the emblems more than anyone else so why was it necessary for them to sit back down in their seats in the front and have the emblems passed yet again? To make it appear more official? The clincher was the passing of the emblems to the speaker. That was always a hoot to watch. One of the brothers would one-step on the stage and hand the plate or glass to the speaker for a split second and then the speaker would hand it back immediately.
Looking back now, I think my 'weird' gut feeling was an embarassment of sorts. In most halls, new people or studies were in attendance. Many had never stepped into the hall before and did not know what to expect. For a dub though, the routine is the same each and every year. Maybe in the back of my mind I knew what we were doing was incorrect and I felt embarassed that these worldly people might have been thinking, "Good god. These people are weirdos."
So did anyone else ever get these strange gut feelings? Or was it just me? I've always wondered about this but never asked another witness.