I went through the same process many years ago that you are now experiencing. I then looked at the god the bible talks about and compared him to myself to see the difference in an imperfect human father and a supreme being heavenly father. Once it was tallied up, the supreme being wasn't looking so supreme.
Did I demand that my kids worshiped me simply because I helped put them on this earth? No.
Did I play games with my kids to prove that they loved me so much they would kill for me just to prove it? No.
Was I a jealous father because they chose to love others as much as they did me? No.
Did I tempt them with a bag of cookies that they could not eat or I would kick them out of the house if they did? No.
Did I threaten to kill them and all their friends if they did not keep telling me how great I was and what a great provider I was every night before they hopped in bed or sat down for a hot dog and coke? No.
I asked myself many questions like this and to my surprise, I was one hell of a lot better father then the bible god was. I had a lot more love, compassion, and understanding then the genocidal and incredibly insecure god of the bible. Also my ex-wife was a lot meaner than Satan and I never cast her down anywhere to fuck up anyone else's life.
If there is a god, he's not the one the bible talks about. No supreme being could be that arrogant, blood thirsty, petty, and neurotic. Using the bibles own words things never add up. God is love...love is not jealous...God is a jealous god...God loved the world so much he gave his son...be no part of the evil world...and on and on. Either god has a real problem making up his mind or he might possibly have a drinking problem. If a cynical middle aged pain in the ass like myself treats his kids better then the god of the bible, it's no wonder the world is so screwed up and confused.
I don't know about evolution but I always got a kick out of the Skeptic Societies comment. Why is it so hard for creationist to believe we all came from modified monkeys when they believe we all came from modified dirt? Going beyond the monkey theory it starts with us coming from smart little globs of bacteria. We see how smart little globs of bacteria can get into our body and restructure our cells that eventually kill us, why not reverse what has already been proven to be factual with germs, viruses and bacteria and think they could evolve to create a living cell as opposed to just killing them. It can be so confusing. Personally I don't care anymore. My interests in who, what, and where, have changed and my priorities in life are my kids. It makes life a lot simpler. I no longer ponder where we came from or where we are going. I care more about where I am now. That's hard enough to deal with. I'll just let the religions of the world fight over the who, what, where, and why, and keep killing each other until either they all can agree, or there is no one left to disagree. I have a lot better, and a lot less insane things to think about
Just a thought.