I just got off the phone with one of the elders. They said that if I do go to the JC and ask them to help me understand why they believe certain stuff and then ask for a study I will probably not get DF'd. I can "bow" down to them and do their little game if the results would help my family.
I love my family very much. We've always been tight to where everyone in the family knew what was happening to the others. I'm having trouble getting over the fact that I will be cast out. If my parents saw that I did "try" and I was still coming up with the same beliefs then it may help them later come out. And in the mean time may help that elder as well. I do feel I have a strong case. But at the same time I don't want to lose my self. I don't want to "follow" anyone. I want to follow God and God alone. I don't want to be "brain washed" by anyone.
Has anyone done this. And if so, what was the result? And if you have anyother suggestions I would like to hear them.