I often think, and this is not knocking the good advice I have just received, that we wouldn't be in a financial fix that we're in now if we hadn't both been born and bred into the JW's though.
My husband was able to get into an apprenticeship when he left school and took all the knocks, including the abuse from his mother and father, that he was materialistic and 'of the world' because he didn't want to pioneer straight from school and I admire him for that.
Myself, I know that when I was young,,,a long time a ago, I had an excellent brain, and I'm not being a big head here, and should have continued my education but I could not bear my parents constant going on about how ashamed they were that I was doing my 'A' levels and quoting aparantly anti education scriptures and after my exams I left school and we married as fast as possible and before you knew it, it was baby bonanza time!
I have young children now and so going back to education is not going to be easy. For instance last week I had three of my children at home with tonsilitis and they were very poorly. Over the winter they can be at home for what seem like FOREVER!
Having said that I wouldn't be without any of them now that they're here, little devils!
We blame ourselves for allowing our brainwashing to continue. We should have know better and should not have been afraid of losing friends and relatives because in the end we are both happier. In saying that I'm not trying to say that money solves all your problems but it just makes life a little easier. We were stupid but when you're brought up in the truth, especially when both of you are brought up in the truth there really doesn't seem to be anything else out there.
I've just started my own business selling antiques over the internet and that seems to be going well but sometimes I hanker over what I could have been. I had a vocation to be a doctor all my life and now it will never be. I think I would have been a bloody good one too!
So, that's why I'm bloody angry with the JW's. But without them I wouldn't have had the best husband and children in the world.
Guess you can't have everything. But it would have been nice to have my cake and eat it.