Thanks everyone. Just want to clarify that i don't jump in bed all the time with everyone I meet. (at least not since my early twenties, ha!ha!) Also I am in therapy and it seems to be helping. Over the last four years I have finally learned my own self worth and that I don't have to settle. I am finally happy with being me and actually very glad to be single. Just fear that I may never feel love again and go through life without ever having that soulmate companion thing. Maybe I am more afraid that it doesn't really exist. Not sure, anyway thanks guys. karategirl