For me, being raised as a Jehovah's Witness denied me of the feelings of empathy other people feel. For so long, I felt NO love for my family, no closeness except that closeness that is demanded by my being Greek. I think it made me into a robot. Even when I got out, I felt nothing but bad and arrogant feelings about my family. If they messed up, those that weren't witnesses, or sympathized with them, were going to die anyway, and I was saved because I still had the chance to get through Armagheddon. Now, I don't feel that way, of course, and my life is totally different. But I still have troubles having empathy.
NORMAL people, that haven't been raised in a cult, feel empathy, don't they? When your fellow man is dying or your fellow man is starving, you try to help them, don't you? You feel what they feel? For me, I didn't feel anything for the longest time. I felt absolutely no sympathy for anybody. Did you feel that, too? Did you get over it?
I am glad to report that my feelings of empathy and support came back strong and unhindered, later. Now, I cry when I see someone starving on television, and I cry my heart out when I see the dolphins that might be killed because of the tuna nets. My feelings are so strong right now, that sometimes I don't understand them. My relational feelings iwth other human beings are so DIFFERENT now.. and I feel always sad for the people that are starving, the people that are losing their kids, the women that are being beaten for not wearing a headdress.. I cry when there's a wedding on television. Am I a normal person, or all these feelings just coming back later when I acknowledge them?
I am a very sensitive person, I have always known that... But I didn't know it would be this painful. I cry all the time now, because of joy, because of pain, because of injustice. I would say that I need to get my emotions in control, but on the other hand I would say my emotions are starting to come out and they are bursting out like a volcano. What do you think? Have you had such a time?