No one in their right mind is a JW. THis is off topic, but im 27 And new to this.
I need some support. I DA myself when i was 19 and at 24 after college, career etc. decided to put my self aside and go back to it. My elder brother and sister married to MS were having little ones left and right and i wanted to be part of their lives and i love these little munchkins........I missed my family. thats the evil little ploy.
it took me 1 year to get reinstated, even after applying after 6 months the "brothers" in Ny wouldnt let it happen, dont really like those who DA themselves. I got involved right off with the "weak " crowd drinking lots , distracting myself from my heart and my head. How can you think clearly about anything when in a constant alcohol fog?
Well i decided to sober up, and have been for 3 months and wow its all so clear....and now im really angry.
Im pissed that i was raised in a cult, not taught how to live a balanced life, being molested by my elder grandfather who was never brought to the athorities (and when i tried to noone would back me up, afraid of dragging the name through the mud).I dont go to meetings anymore, im trying to drift away because io dont want anyone to tell my flesh and blood that they cant talk to me.....ive been through that and it sucks....yet theyre all freaking out because i dont go and exluding me from family stuff already.........dazed and confused.....