I feel dark today

by Thunder Rider 15 Replies latest jw friends

  • Thunder Rider
    Thunder Rider

    Alone

    Alone with my thoughts I stand and beckon a flame from my lighter
    Pipe smoke rises before my eyes clouding the view ahead of me
    My gaze is focused on nothing in particular, just tomorrow
    Not that today is without interest or unworthy of my consideration
    But the mystery of the days to come intrigue the dreamer in my soul
    The wonder of life in the moment can pale in comparison to the imaginings of the writer?s mind especially if he is alone
    Alone by choice is the mantra of the pathetic
    Alone by circumstance, the burden of the lost
    Alone for the week end, cruel and unusual punishment for a man in love
    Idle hands are said to be the Devil?s workshop
    An idle mind I fear is much more dangerous
    For with the mind atrocities most heinous take to flight
    Only the will of the thinker aborting their fruition
    Stilling a hand bent on revenge for transgressions past
    Denying the blade the taste of evildoers blood
    Postponing the inevitable administration of justice
    And the peace of mind their end will bring
    Night falls darkening the room
    But still my surroundings be brighter than my minds mood
    Caffeine, nicotine and loneliness fuel the somber rage
    My soul soother is nowhere to be found
    Sounds of the night beckon for the prowl, the hunt
    For beasts more evil even than myself
    Their evil done, mine to come
    The clouds break and a singular moon beam streaks through the blinds
    It finds rest on the edge of the blade hanging on the wall
    The blade destined to deliver mine enemies unto me
    To demand restitution
    To lay to rest the blood lust in my soul
    A sword yet chaste but waiting
    In the mean time my soul soother will return
    She will calm the beast
    The wicked will live on another day
    Likely unhindered with guilt of mind and spirit from their evil deeds
    But I know, I remember, I never forget, I will have my say
    There is no forgiveness I will see justice served for myself
    But not till I am ever alone

    Copyright 2004
    Chris Madonia

  • LittleToe
    LittleToe

    Revenge - a dish best served cold...

  • Country Girl
    Country Girl

    That poem is the NEW black!

    Country Girl

  • Thunder Rider
    Thunder Rider

    No comfort for the wicked I see.

    Thunder ==]>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

  • Robdar
    Robdar

    Hell, Yeah, Thunder!

  • czarofmischief
    czarofmischief

    Our day will come, brother.

    CZAR

  • LyinEyes
    LyinEyes

    Thunder, I am going to save that poem , it is so full of emotion.

    I am without my soother tonight ,and I have found all day that I have so many "demons" that try to drag me down, also thinking of dark thoughts. When he is home, I have purpose, when he is here I feel safe. God, I wish he was home.

    Thanks for the poem.

  • Thunder Rider
    Thunder Rider

    Odd how the company of that certain some one can take us from doom and gloom to sunshine and roses. Sometimes all it takes is a call on my cell, a note in the kitchen, or seeing her picture on the dash and knowing she's home waiting.

    I sometimes wonder it if is a burden to the soul soother knowing that but for her influence I would tread down a much darker road.

    My enemies pray she out lives me! :)

    Thunder ==}>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    Yeah, I can feel it. THANK GOD you wield the pen first. When does Sheila get back?

  • Sunnygal41
    Sunnygal41

    Thunder! That was a MAGNIFICENT poem! I knew you were talented, but, this really reinforces it! Wow!

    As to the subject matter...........being alone..............I used to feel such deep, dark despair whenever I found myself alone..............and, to a very minor extent, still do.....but, I must say that that particular "demon" has no more stranglehold on me.

    Terri

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