The very idea of having to lead a double life is so very alien to me....it all sounds so "James Bond"; a left over anacroism from the cold war era.
I do sympathize with those who live this kind of life style; and I understand those who make this sacrifice for the sake of their children.....
I can only say that when you do "leave the JW way of life"behind ; you will realize that the world around you ( in the USA and Western Europe) is in fact, a free world. A FREE WORLD, where you can think; act ; play and live your life in any way you like; with no one or group looking over your shoulder to criticize you.
The liberation is intoxicating.