I am a sociopath - WT Society's fault???

by Confucious 40 Replies latest jw friends

  • Confucious
    Confucious

    Although not professionally diagnosed, I feel like I'm a sociopath.

    Someone told me the definition of one (and it is complex) and I feel I fit the mold - although not 100 percent. There are some things that I don't match the definition of.

    Anyway, I feel that my depressions was caused by the WT Society (Society - Such a creepy word).

    That I'm sure of.

    But I was wondering - do you think that being a JW contributed to me being a sociopath???

    First of all, it takes a big man (that is I, hehehe) to admit he is a sociopath.

    But I was thinking that I became one - mainly because I was repressed and I've gotten to the point where my conscience is scared.

    I still care about people - a GREAT deal.

    But I'm very self-centered.

    Mostly I THINK, because I was have been in such a SELF-DENIAL stage for so long. That, finally, I've decided to be good to myself.

    Anyway, any thoughts??? Not flames please.

    I know I can be an ass sometimes.

    Just wanted to know your thoughts.

    Con

  • simplesally
    simplesally

    Why do you feel like a sociopath?

  • Confucious
    Confucious

    Simply,

    Thanks for answering.

    There was a guy that I feel that was taking advantage of me business wise.

    He told me that I was a sociopath.

    I'm young (relatively) and I make real good money.

    So he called me a sociopath.

    So I looked it up on the Internet.

    And some stuff did match.

    So I emailed the link to my ex-wife whom is someone I really trust and we're still friends.

    Anyway, she agreed.

    So that's where I am.

  • simplesally
    simplesally

    What matched?

  • talesin
    talesin

    1. A sociopath HAS NO CONSCIENCE.

    You already said your conscience is bothered, confucious.

  • Confucious
    Confucious

    Simple,

    I guess the main core or a sociopath is that "he/she steps over everyone to get what he/she wants." (my defiition).

    Anyway, I've been so giving (Pioneer for 10 years) that I got to the point where I'm almost the total opposite.

    Not that I kick stray cats or stuff like that. But I'm almost at the point where I don't care about anyone else but myself.

    And I do feel bad about it.

    The last year (and this was after my divorce and my exit from the Borg), I've probably had 10 girlfriends. And I probably fired 5 empolyees for whatever reason.

    Anyway, I'm not way out there, because I could still reason.

    But sometimes I wonder if I'm just an ass and everyone else is wrong or - everyone else is just taking advantage of me.

    Con

  • Satanus
    Satanus

    I doubt that the wt could do that to somebody, unless they were already bent that way. I think it starts w one or both parents. The mother is the root, imo. If she doesn't give physical affection and relate/communicate well w the infant, then the emotional foundation that enables a person to make attatchments/feel close to others is not there.

    The atlantic mag did a good article on this a few yrs ago. I may try to find it tomorrow.

    Here is a quote:

    The irony is that people who grow up with emotionally absent mothers/trauma issues desperately crave to be filled by the "Mother", but cannot tolerate/have difficulty allowing themselves to receive love from others.

    S

    Ps, there is another classification: narcistic - totally selfish, self centred.

  • Confucious
    Confucious

    Tal,

    Well that's good news.

    Hmmm. Thanks.

    Con

  • Confucious
    Confucious

    "Sat (on my) Anus" - Satanus,

    Can I call you that???

    J/K. No disrespect intended.

    Could you PLEASE give me more info on that article???

    Con

  • Confucious
    Confucious

    Satanus,

    The reason I say that is because my ex-wife has told me at times that I had REAL issues with Non-comunicado with my mother.

    Con

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