Hi all
I just thought that I would share my life as a Jw. I was born into this CULT in 1973. I was born as a hermaphodite (both sexes) this was of great shock to my parents, apparently the confided in one of the ELDERS asking him what thay should do? His respones was that I should be made male (the doctors at the time said I should be Female) My parent took the avice of the elder and I was the made to be a male.
As I was growing up I beged my parents to allow me to be the person that God had wanted me to be but the elders kept reasuring me and my parent that God wanted me to be a male so that I could one day be a Elder or S/overser.
In my teen years it became very apparent that my parents had made a mistake as I would act in a very female way. The Elder even had metting with me telling me that God hated the way I was acting and that I should suppress these things and try to be an upstanding member, This of cause lead to major depression and some suicide attempts. After child welfare was brought in my parents were forced to take me to see varies doctors who all confirmed that indeed I should have been made female at birth. This still did not go down the Jws and they sugested that I marry in order to sort my problems out. A young sister was selected and at age 21 I was marriade even though this was a sham it lasted 6 years untill I tryed to commit suicide for the 6th time in my life 3rd since being marride, my wife then Begged me to seek medical help against the wishes of the elder and she was reproved on that. I did and we went to marrige counselling as well. Duing this time I told my wife about the resons that I marride her and she was shocked that the elders had sugested such a thing and did not beleive me. Duing my treatment I decided that the doctors were infact correct and made the decision to become female this lead to me being Dishfellowshiped from the congegation even though there was so much medical evidence in my favor(the body of elders would not meet with any of my doctors to discuss the issue.
My parents no long communicate with me unless it is for very importate thing Although I am fortunate to have a brother and sister that have also seen the organisation for what it is and left. this does not help me as I am now 31 divorced, can not spell or right, can get a job as I have no education and to make things worse Im now labeled as a transexual ( if I had of been given the correct treatment at birth this would not be the case) I hate these people for what they have done to me, if it was not for my sister and brother then I would sure be dead now I am always trying to think of new ways to end my misory and have been in and out of hospitals all my life. these people realy have a lot to answer for
I have now been disfellowshiped for 1 year and at the age of 31 I am back at school leaning the basic thing that I could not learn as a child (Spelling etc) as there was now way I could learn these things when I was growing up. I thank Jehovah for allowing me to be disfellowshiped at this age before it was to late.