Well, I am beginning to feel pretty good about myself.
It?s been almost two years since I left, and the first thing I did, was do everything they forbade. Man .. that was fun ?
But, now, I am beginning to live a rather quiet life. Steady relationship, I feel rather balanced.
Oh joy what it was when I was told I run like ten years behind on my age.
I?m not even sure what was meant by that remark.. Perhaps the fact that I totally refuse to worry about anything. That I have an unshaken belief system, that when I really need it, or in deep trouble, something good will happen. Well, you can?t blame me for having that belief, up till now, it always did.
Or perhaps it is the fact that I hate to argue. I will rather swallow my angry spiteful remarks than utter them. Unless you really piss me off, then you?ll have a fight you won?t easily forget, but it takes a lot for me to reach that point.
And perhaps it was cuz I am not really an adult. But I don?t wanne be either. I like being in this freedom-still-rocks kinda place. I work to pay my bills; I have fun when not working. Nothing wrong with that.
And then I was told ? that right now, I am living like I should have lived ten years ago.
I feel incredible sad by that remark, cuz it is true. But then, I may not have had these fun teenage years, I did learn a whole lot through other experiences?.
And then, perhaps, me posting this to get some kind of reassuring feedback, is exactly what was meant with the remark, you don?t act your age?.
Blue Bubblegum Girl, feeling kinda introspective