Okay ... I know that there are a lot of depressing stories about people leaving the borg ... I personally am very happy that people are leaving. I know that I had to be miserable enough ~~ yes, totally miserable ~~ before I could leave successfully. And believe me, the elders made it possible for me to be v-e-r-y miserable!!! They disfellowshipped me two weeks after my mom died ... while I was deep in grief!! Believe me when I say I saw their very finest love and compassion and mercy!!! *sarcasm alert*
Well, my life has certainly turned around from that bleak day in 1999. I moved to Vancouver and made a whole lot of new dance friends, found a wonderful group of supportive friends who are into positive thinking and healthy mentality. It wasn't until after being disfellowshipped that I dared peek into this forum and discovered a wonderful network of caring people who understand what it's like to leave a cult and heal.
I found a new dance partner (and also "other" partner) who I seem to have fallen in love with v-e-r-y deeply. He supports, loves and nurtures me in a way that I have never experienced before in my entire life! He is everything that I have been hoping for in a partner! Every time I learn something new about him, it is something else that is soooooooo wonderful! He loves dancing as passionately as I do. This week we took our first Bronze 2 Latin dance lesson together. He loves classical music as much as I do, especially Mozart. We both love going for long walks in nature. Besides other fun bedroom-type activities, he reads to me in bed!!! And we like reading the same kind of books! He has a lovely sense of his spirituality. The other morning we woke up together and he asked me, "How is your soul this morning...?" I melted! He has such a beautiful soul!!!
Anyway, we have been talking about a future together ... like the possibility of moving in together. Sheesh! I'm a little overwhelmed and speechless! I think our being together would be very harmonious, since he and I are both that type of person. We are both Venusians. He is soooo puuuuuurfect for meeee in every way imaginable!!!! Yes, lovemaking too!!! He is so gentle and caring and loving and nurturing (oh, I guess I said that before, didn't I)...
Good things happen to us. He is moving back into his parents estate home. He didn't have a proper bed because in his apartment he only had a single bed. Well, I said to him Saturday morning that he might want to think about buying a King size bed because he "squeezes" himself into a queen size bed because he is so wonderfully tall *sigh*... Love it, he is 6'2" *sigh again*...puuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Oh yeah, the bed ... I seem to daydream a lot lately ... so anyway, we made plans to shop on Monday. Well, before Monday came along, Sunday afternoon I got a phone call from him and he tells me that he has a line on a bed! Turns out his ex-wife who claimed his king size bed in the division of property can't seem to squeeze the new acquisition into her new condo and would he like it back...? He was willing to let it go, and because not only the bed but the entire Italian Antique bedroom suite belonged to his parents anyway, that it was meant to stay with him and not go to the ex! So here it was coming back to it's rightful owner in a most unusual way!!! We were in awe!!! Like the universe just knew how to work things out. It wasn't even in our consciousness ... it just happened that way!
Well ... this is my happy vent ... so pardon me for rambling just a bit ...Well, I just had to tell someone!!!