Our first act of rebellion against the Watchtower.

by The Rebel 12 Replies latest jw friends

  • The Rebel
    The Rebel

    One day at Art class, we were told we were to draw a naked woman. I knew as a witness this would be wrong, but I awaited the lesson in anticipation, it would be the first time I had seen a naked woman. I remember sitting at my esal waiting ten or fifteen minutes for her to appear. I remember first the removal of a pair of thick glasses, then the removal of her dressing gown, and she sat down. She was naked, and I was embarrassed, it did not seem right to look at her. How old was I? Sixteen, seventeen? And then something strange happened, once I started to draw I found I could look at her as if she were a statue. There was no excitement just the challenge of being an artist. However during the break when she put on her gown and talked to us about our drawings she became very desirable, on many levels .

    Looking back on that history, I realize how stupid I was to feel wrong about any of this, it wasn't as if I wanted to get her in bed, and what should have been an artistic challenge for me instead caused me much anxiety because I felt I was doing something secret and evil. I now prefer to reminisce on the experience and think that was my first " act of rebellion" against the watchtower.

  • Darkknight757

    Great life experience! Have you continued in your artistry?

    Growing up I had many "girl friends" who were just friends, nothing more. There was no romantic involvement and it never lead to anything but companionship. It's sad that Watchtowerites cannnot experience close friends with the opposite sex because they think we humans cannot control our sexual desires when alone.

    As for first acts of rebellion against Watchtower? Buffy the Vampire Slayer binges with the wife and coming here for confirmation that Watchtower was a lie.

  • The Rebel
    The Rebel

    Darknight " Have you continued with your artistry?"

    My house has both my boys and my paintings, hanging in every room.


    Has anybody read " Alone in Berlin" by Hans Fallada? The book is fiction about a simple German man and his wife who loose a child in the war. They then realize they can't ignor Hitler's ideology and let it go unchallenged. Their rebellion is to write a message on a post card each day, and leave it in a place people can read it.

    Its a bit like leaving a tract with someone, multiplied by a thousand it can became effective.

    Can you imagine if each ex-witness wrote a note to a witness saying why they left? It wouldn't make people leave, but the G.B would hear about the apotsocy and foolishly make an issue of it.

  • Vidiot

    Cussing, R-rated movies, fantasy comic books, occasional association with "worldy" kids...

  • Gorbatchov

    Free thinking weekends with wine and dine with a JW who studied on a University and others.

    And then... reading Ray Franz with them.

    It was 1995, then, when the 1914 doctrine changed.

    It all came together.


  • blondie
    Would it have bothered you it the model was a naked man?
  • The Rebel
    The Rebel

    It would have been dissapointing blondie. But that's the sixteen year old in me answering. And funnily enough I remember embarrassed giggles came from the girls in the class, I wonder how they would have have reacted if it was a man?

    Being sixteen was a great year in my life, then school, friends (male and female) and sadly EDUCATION ended. Thanks W.T. Oh but also thanks Facebook, for bringing those friends back again.

  • blondie

    I suppose female genitals are less visible than male, though I never understood some males fascination with female breasts.

    Pre-1950 the WT publications had some very naked pictures. The Golden Age has a view of the naked male butt.

  • Landy
    though I never understood some males fascination with female breasts.

    That's cos you're not a man :D

  • The Rebel
    The Rebel

    I think my O.P which is " Our first act of rebellion against the Watchtower" may be going off topic. However i must admit the off topic posts are entertaining.

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