Oh, twizzle. My daughter had a JW boyfriend, and finally decided that a mixed relationship would not work, and she could never become JW. She looked carefully at that culture and decided that she would lose herself, if she tried to live that life. You have to decide whether you would respect yourself, looking in a mirror.
Time to give your brain more ammunition to deal with your heart. To understand the Jehavh's Witness culture as much as it is possible for an outsider to do, and decide if you can live that life. No matter how much you love the man, it will fade and you will become bitter, if you hate your life.
Have you read the www.freeminds.org site? Also http://www.ajwrb.org/ and http://members.aol.com/beyondjw/inlove.htm.?
One consideration is if you are willing to see very little of your own family? As they are not JW, gradually you will see less and less of them as you can't see them at any celebration when families normally get together such as Christmas or birthdays or other holidays. You will have less in common with them and you will be discouraged from spending much time with them as they are not "good association". You would miss your family weddings or funerals if they were in a church. Five JW meetings a week plus time out knocking on doors leaves little time for socializing with your parents or siblings.
The other huge consideration is how you will raise your children. Have you done any research on how JWs raise their children. Have you looked at the books they use for teaching. Are you aware of how children are treated with regard to having to sit through long services or risk being physically punished? Will it bother you that your children can become socially isolated at school because they can't participate in anything to do with government or holidays and can only associate with other Witness kids? Would you be willing to let your child die for lack of a blood transfusion if they were in an accident or had chemotherapy that destroyed their own blood production? Would you be willing to shun your own children if they broke WT rules such as smoking, or dating an outsider?
Some JW guys are not clear exactly what JW life is like.The most effective place to learn is from their own literature. Please read 2 JW publications.They are:"Questions Young People Ask" and "Secrets of Family Happiness". They detail how you are to raise your children and how your marriage is supposed to go. You have to decide if your husband being the boss all the time is right for your marriage.
You have to decide what you want out of your own life. Loving a guy is not enough to make a marriage work, long term if you don't want to live the same life.
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