I know how she feels because I was damn embarrassed and ashamed to say I was a Jehovah's Witness.
Was this the beginning of my awakening? Maybe so. But, I felt damn stupid. Not only that, I wasn't so sure I believed what I had to say at the doors either. As time went on, my presentations were VERY brief. I also started to feel that I couldn't, in good conscience, tell anybody this was "truth" because I wasn't sure I believed it myself.
I remember one time some woman asked us to get off her property, meanwhile I felt stupid just being there in the first place.
What an idiot I was...I am glad this is all behind me.