Jules: Personally, now that I've learned about the Society, things I never knew
when I wasn't "awake", I am unsure of where I stand with my own
convictions. And I'm sure this feeling must be normal with anyone who
finds out about TTATT.
I call this the What the Heck Do I Believe Now? stage of leaving a religious cult.
It is disorienting and confusing. It takes time and a lot of hard work to figure out what beliefs, if any, to hold onto after leaving a religion, particularly one that causes such a deep, intimate sense of betrayal.
After nearly a decade of working on this, I have personally come to the conclusion that the god of the Bible is a complete fiction. If there is any god at all, it most certainly does not resemble any of the gods of the religions of man. Also, such a being--based on all available evidence--is clearly not interested in us on a personal level.
Nevertheless, I have found that there is a great deal of meaning to be found in life. I have also discovered a variety of ways to feel personally fulfilled. I would describe myself as spiritual, but not religious (SBNR).
It takes more work to be spiritual than it does to be religious because we have to discover the answers for ourselves rather than accept those that are pre-made for us. But in the end it is ultimately more satisfying because those answers are personally relevant and meaningful.
On a side note, I found that the WTBTS was so good at deconstructing the inconsistencies and errors in other religions that, once I turned my critical attention to it, I could easily see that it too was just another false religion. So there was no question in my mind of wasting time investigating other religions to see what they had to offer.
In my experience talking with and reading the experiences of other former JWs, the only ones that join other religions and stick with it were never really hardcore "true-believers" of the JW belief system. If they were, then how could they go to something that they previously were convinced was false and untrue?