Hey guys! How are y'all? For me, things are doing better, you could say. Ever since I been on here, posting, and whatnot, I have been even more enlightened, if that's the correct word. I've got so much help and advice from ones on this forum.
So life so far is getting better. I've got things falling in place, even though my grandmother says otherwise. Some things I could still work on. Since my grandmother knows about how I want no part of the religion, she basically is telling me that I am immature and a hypocrite because "I promised to do his will and I dedicated my life to Jehovah." She still tells me to read articles by the organization, just like this weeks watchtower article. Which actually says, "Baptism is a requirement for Christians, and it is an essential step to gaining salvation." Personally, there is a lot of things mentioned in the article that is weird and confusing, probably just mind-manipulating. Seems as the organization wants you to think the world is a hell hole with nothing good for you.
Some days my depression gets to me because I know I'm going to be shunned because of my decision. I was researching and found 'Religious Trauma Syndrome.' Whether it's a real syndrome or not, that is actually what i'm experiencing, even though I haven't left yet.
My belief in a lot of doctrines taught by the organization has withered. I have no belief in "Satan." No belief in the "Resurrection." Just to name a couple. I kind of have took on that personality of, "I'm here for a good time, not a long time."
293 days till I leave, basically almost 10 months.
Thanks for reading my drawn out 17 year old feelings, lmao.