So like the title suggests, I'm going to break up with my boyfriend today. It's for several reasons, but mostly because I'm not prepared for a relationship. I need to grow and learn what it's like to be me now that I'm not a JW and learn how to love myself so I don't make the person I am with miserable.
Unfortunately, I haven't been fading well. Between adding my new "worldly" friends on Facebook (some of whom are gay) and liking and commenting on posts that I "shouldn't" (politics, gay rights, etc.) I think it's become obvious to my JW "friends" that something is up. (I should have Unfriended them but now it's too late). Also, my dad saw a book on Buddhism in my car.
So, soon it may all catch up to me and I will loose my parents and when that happens I will be entirely alone with absolutely no one in the world who cares about me deeply and that makes me very very sad
So my question to you is how do you deal with the inevitable lonliness that comes from having almost no family or anyone who loves you? I don't want a new relationship right now and I have made some new friends, but none that care for me deeply and its so scary being entirely alone. How do you cope?