I truly bought the cult's promise hook, line, and sinker.
So did I. When we were younger, I didn't worry about health issues that were looming. After all, they would never progress to anything serious before the New World was here and solved all those problems. Fast forward to now. We've dealt with cancer, heart attacks, diabetes, eyesight and hearing decline, (HUH?). My term life insurance policy matures in 8 years so I must deal with the fact that I'm worth considerably more (financially) to my heirs if I die sooner rather than later. We've even discussed funeral plans, not that many of our "friends" would bother to attend. It's a real awakening to come to realize that one of you is going to die first and that the other will have to deal with it all and will be left alone (and probably too old to remarry at this point even if we wanted to deal with "training" a new spouse).
Our goal now is to concentrate on our grandchildren. All of our children are "out", thus our grandchildren will never be slaves to this Cult and they will have the opportunity to get a good education. Even when we were JWs, we refused to deny our kids higher education. (I missed out and I was damn certain they would not!) So the kids are all fairly well established in their careers. We were able to help them with the costs of college and buying homes, so they should be OK as long as they don't f**k it up. We are by no means rich, but we plan to see that our grandkids will be OK starting out in life. Now it's absolutely ludicrous to think that at one time I believed that the best thing you could give to you kids (or grandkids) was The Troof. Now I realize it is TTATT.
While I'm not 100% convinced about there being no afterlife, I see no evidence to cling to that belief. I'm pretty certain that it's all over with our last breath. I'm disappointed that I won't get to see my father and my grandparents again (in the resurrection). At the time, I didn't realize their deaths would be so "final". I wasn't as close as I wish I had been as I was too busy in my life -- work, raising kids -- and worst of all, being the dedicated JW Elder, which took priority over everything else. So much wasted time chasing a dream. Or should I say chasing a nightmare?