I was not raised or born in. I converted at 25. And yes, I did study virtually all religions before converting from Presbyterian.
I have sympathy for those who wasted their life in this religion because they were born in it or raised in it. The fact you actually converted to this religion as an adult gives me an indication to your mental state. It is apparent you lack intellectual honesty with your above statement. You don't even have the convictions to follow your religion and instead visit and participate in known apostate sites. Again weak will, so sad.
The statement that you study virtually all religions indicates to me your truthfulness. There are over 4,200 active religions and 10s of thousands of sects and branches in those religions. This doesn't even include all the dead religions. I understand your masters the Governing Body has commanded you not to obtain a college education, but you might want to check out a few books at your local library.
The Worlds' Religions, Revised and Updated By Huston Smith