I was inactive 3 times from 19 till now my early 60's. I have been out for 16 years and know I won't go back ever.
I have less family in the Borg now but I have nothing to do with those who are left finally recognizing the abuse in my family and in the Borg, emotional, spiritual, and physical. I learned the only way for me was to make a complete cutoff.
But for everyone is different....experiences, abilities. But I feel for me it was like being told that I would die unless the bad was cut out. There would be pain, but I would not die. My past life would be gone but I had a new life.
If anyone has read my story over the years, you know I did not fade the last time, I just left in the middle of a circuit assembly and never came back, not for the memorial, wedding, or funeral. The first Sunday I woke up not having to go to a meeting and have a nice breakfast of waffles and strawberries with my husband and read the Sunday paper, go to a nice movie in the afternoon. No more rushing to evening meetings after work unless it was to go to a class of my choosing.
Examine your relationships at the KH, are they really for friends, if someone says something bad about you, are they loyal or do they believe it . Do people say you aren't doing enough and no acknowledge the real sacrifices you are making.
Well, isn't that why some may not be leaving, because they know their love is conditional. My family helped me out the door but proving they had no real love towards me or others that poisoned my life.