*not born in but so young when my "foster mum "converted I don't remember before. I was ostensibly raised by my dad but he was a mentally ill alcoholic who was always at work in london ( media type were boozing was de rigueur in the 70s). My dad's friend/neighbour simply took over. I know many would say I'm far from born in but with no mother and an absent father my only jw carer was very much in loco parentis.
I think im an interesting case in that i thought i passionately believed, but on reflection my attitudes have always been far from typical for a jw.
How did you feel to have been "privileged to have been born into the only true faith - The Truth"?o
I thought that it couldn't just be down to luck. I leaned towards most of the world catching up, and that by the time I was big enough to do vs on my own most of the work would be done (LoLconvenient for me!) and every one converted.
Did this make you feel confident, or proud - or perhaps arrogant?
I sort of thought I had had a pretty hard time (see above) so God was kinda giving me a break LoL! I suppose that is a kind of arrogance, since most of the world's kids are way worse off.I was a very emotional kid who loved everyone, as I grew older I thought less and less of myself and thought myself utterly blood guilty...doomed to die. This by the time I was 12 I suppose.
How did you reconcile the fact that 99% of the earth's population was not born "into the Truth"?
I simply didn't believe God would kill the non believers, I had an excuse for everyone. I thought Watchtower mistaken in this, so I suppose that was dissonence.....or I just never fully understood the religion, deep down, some would say although my foster mum was an educated liberal ups convert, so perhaps she didn't either. She certainlyvrefused to shun her DF daughter and her husband had a big, bushy, untidy beard. He was never your average witness, either. As a baptised brother they did nag him, as it got into the 80s, to get it cut. He refused. Since he was the strong, silent, intelligent type no one had the balls to mess with him in the cong and since he never had aspirations, as guys with genuinely responsible, important jobs often don't, they left him alone in the end.
As a child, did you ever question these things?
I never questioned that the basic concept was the truth. However the judgementalism...no way, I didn't agree with that. Looking back I remember being shocked my friend thought it was bad to be gay!! I guess I must have known even then it was gUmpf . Or the world had influenced me more than I knew.