LyinEyes

Lady Lee

Dede

I have something I have wanted to say to you for a while.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Years ago I came so close to dying by my own hand. I would have left 2 beautiful daughters behind.

Your posts about your pain and your mother, Lura, have validated for me the terrible pain I would have inflicted on my children.

I always knew they would be very affected if I died. I had started speaking to people asking them to care for my girls if something happened to me.

Somehow I found the strength to find a way to live. I'm sorry your mom wasn't able to find that way for herself and for you.

As a mother, I know how much my girls would have wondered what they did that would make me want to leave them. I am sure you have wondered this yourself. But just like it would not have been my daughter's fault, it wasn't your fault either

Dede, if anything, having a child, as you know, is a reason to continue to live. I would think your mother would have held on as long as she could for you.

But no parent decides to commit suicide because her child is not good enough. Children are the gift that keep us going (even when they are driving us crazy).

It sounds to me like Lura just could not handle the depression and problems of adult life any longer.

Thank you for sharing your pain and your mother's story as a warning for others to get the help they need so that other daughters do not need to suffer like you do/did.

wednesday

I just wanted to second that. I have times when i do not want to go on, due to depression and pain and ill health. But just actually reading what it does to thoese left behind-it makes u pause and clear my mind. and helps me get up everyday. i don't want one of my kids to be posting to this board b/c of something i have done.

weds

SheilaM

Ditto Lady Lee and Wednesday

Big Tex

Dede is a fantastic person. She is kind and caring.

But then so is Lady Lee.

Lady Lee

LyinEyes

Lady Lee, I am crying ,,,,,,,but it is a good cry , ya know, those kind that you get when someone understands you afterall, I thank you for that. For really knowing what I am thinking and about what my mother must have felt too. You are such a wonderful person Lady Lee, you help so many people , I hope you know how much we all value your wisdom here, and you are an inspiration of what a real survivor is . It does my heart good to hear of people who have been thru so much , but make it thru it, scars and all, and still have such spirit to them , that no man, no religion , could ever break.

I also thank all of you for what you have done for me since I have been on this site. The understanding the caring, all of the hugs and the kind things said, have been more than I have ever known from people other than my husband. It amazes me that all the time I was a witness no one wanted to listen to me talk about my mother, maybe it was too painful for them, or they didnt know how to comfort me, even thou all I wanted to do was say her name outloud sometimes , just talk about her.

But coming here I feel that I could do that , right from the start and it has been the best therapy for me than any good money could ever buy. It is a priceless gift to know all of you on this site who have been in such pain yourselves but take the time to reach out and comfort others.

I just can't express the chills I get , the feeling I get in my heart when someone says my mother's name when they talk to me. I thank you for that. It makes me feel good to know that even thou my mother is not here to thank you for your sweet kindness and understanding of what happened to her,,,,, I know she would be overwhelmed by the love that is shown by all of you on this board.

((((((((((((((((((((((((( Hugs to you all)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Dede

onacruse

Dede, you know very well how much you helped me when I came here last summer...your caring and loving thoughts are a refreshing cool breeze to my soul.

You'll always have a special place in my heart.

Craig

Brummie

Lyin I would echo everyones words here, you are a credit, and I think most here admire your spirit and courage and your ability to share that strength with others amidst your own heartache. You are an incredible human being.

Say hi to WT for us.

Brummie

Francois

Yeah, what Brummie said 'n' on toppa that, you're a real good lookin' chickie baby. See? I'm always thinkin' ' bout ya.

francois

gumby

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Years ago I came so close to dying by my own hand. I would have left 2 beautiful daughters behind.
Your posts about your pain and your mother, Lura, have validated for me the terrible pain I would have inflicted on my children.

I just want to say that anyone who thinks just sharing simple stories do not help others.....even to the point of saving lives.....there wrong. It's not always the big important anti-witness stories that make this place what it is.

Thank you lady lee........and dede

Had you knew dede and her story when you first had these thoughts, you may had not dwealt upon them as long as you did or not at all.

Gumby

LyinEyes

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