Vicious attacks by JW family
I am hoping that by telling my story that I will be able to once and for all time release the stress built up inside of me from brutal attacks I have received from the my JW family.
In 1996 I moved to a town called Redding, Ca. I moved there because my mother lived there with her husband. My youngest half brother whom I loved well passed on from cancer at only 21. I felt that I needed to be closer to my mother so I closed my buisness which was a very profitable buisness and moved to Redding. I never told my mom why I really moved there because the last time I did that I was knocked down for it.
In January of 1997 I had an Anyuerism in the brain. Luckily I was saved through brain surgery and was left with only minor complications but felt the need to get closer to God as my life was almost lost in a second. So of course my mother being a JW and I knew some things about that faith but not nearly what I know now. She and her church people took advantage of me because of my illness and convinced me that there religion was the truth and that I need to be one of them so if another Anyuerism was to happen I would be saved. At that time I was living with my mom because of circumstances I lost my home. I had finally got to where I could live on my own again and I moved away from my moms home.
I had receieved a large Social Security back payment and with that money I purchased a computer and I got online. Previously to that I had asked God in Prayer to protect me from those who decieve and that if this religion was not the truth to please show me because I was only weeks away from being baptised. I said in my prayer that I would be better of dead than to be lied to from this religion. Well I got online and the first thing I did was a search of Jehovah`s Witnesses. Man what did I do ! I found out the real truth that they were indeed telling me lies and I was being deceived by them. So I quit going to the meetings completley and began to show my mom that this religion was false and I was showing her all these things that I was learning about them. Then I heard about 20/20 and I made sure they knew about the program, reminding them that it was to air and that they should watch it. I told my mom they will probably tell you not to watch it and my moms statement was "they are not going to tell me what I can watch or not watch, they are not my masters" And so I believe they seen the show. (that was good) I really didnt think they would.
Well it was all in that same time things were looking like maybe they were beginning to brain wash my younger brother into there realm of falseness and so I asked my brother in a chat one day "Are you studing to be a JW?" His reply to me was what does it matter if I am a JW a Seventh Day Adventist or a Devil worshipor and I answered back that they were all Cults and that he should really look close into them all so he would know for himself. The next thing I know my mom is screaming down my neck that I should not interfer with my brothers beliefs and that I should not interfer with her teaching him there religion. Well I am one person whom when he has somthing to say I say it weather it hurts you or not I will say it. So I began to tell her that her religion was a lie and that she was in a cult and that she had lied to me about there religion being the truth. I told her that the truth was in Jesus Christ and not the Watchtower association. Some time had passed and not much when I received a phone call from my sister that I was being investigated for molesting my niece when she was living with me for a short time. I soon found that my brother and my mother had all to do with it. I now live with the fact that I was investigated for child molesting on my record for the rest of my life. It was found to be not credible and the charges were dropped. Whew I thought that was the end of it . NO then I hear that I am being investigated that I was having an sexual affair with a 15 year old in Colorado, they decided that they were not going to stop messing with me. Well that one did not pan out to well as it was all lies to decieve the police into making my life miserable. Since that claim did not pan out for them they decided to go throughout the neighborhood and tell them that I was having cyber sex with minors on the internet. My brother had made up some text and printed it out making claims that I masterbated with a 14 year old girl who was really himself. I had a friend in the neighborhood who I thought was a true brother in the Lord Jesus but I soon found that not so as after they convinced him that I did this he will not speak to me anymore, Infact he is a member here who has made many post here. His wife is a JW and I think that she runs his life oh well thats there buisness. Now I have moved away from that town and state. I will no longer see my mother or my brother but I forgive them and I pray for them everyday in hopes that someday they will find true peace in themselves. And I can assure everyone I have never in any way had a sexual confrontation with any underage minor ever. My friends know me better than that and the rest of my family know me better than that.
I thought that writting this I would be able to find peace within myself too and I hope I do. I ask God to help me over come my anger and to heal the stress that I have had to live with. Im not sure if moving was the thing to do but I leave it in my Lords hands. And I leave this story to you all. I hope that none of you will ever have to go through this kind of terrorist attack. Thanks for hearing my cries.....GOD BLESS US EVERYONE !!
It really doesn't suprise me. Their minds are warped, and they are hopeless right now. Now that you are oficially a pagan, you can do anything, in their eyes.
KGB, that's awful. I'm sorry that you have been through so much. I have just been shredded to pieces by my jw family too. My situation was different of course but it is still the same deceit and lies. It caused me great pain too and I just learned in another thread by Azaria that anger comes from pain. That hit me hard tonight because I have been extremely angry at everything and everybody lately. I guess that I didn't know that they still had the capacity to hurt me even more than they did by shunning me but they found a new way to do it. If you ever need to be involved with them again for "family business" you know, when a family member is dying, etc... please don't do what I did and go back with a heart full of love unless you are ready to take more pain that can hurt you even more than what you have already suffered. You seem like a loving person who will do what I did, so just remember my words someday. I hope that you never need to but you might. Take your life now and live it and let the dead bury their dead. I may sound harsh but Jesus never intended for us to put up with mental and spiritual abuse on purpose. In other words, I will not go looking for love from them again. I can offer my love but I will never ever expect a drop back. Knowing that for sure now has given me a sort of peace. I wish all the best things for you. I had a Christian bro-in-law turn his back on me too because he believed my jw sister who made up a lie. I was shocked that he would believe her lies because he knows my heart for the Lord. It's a painful and confusing place we live in. My heart goes out to you. Hang tough brother. Love, dj
When I was in the borg I used to tell people never to search for "Jehovah's Witnesses" on the Internet because 99.9% of it was apostate. I was such a moron... I should have encouraged it. Maybe I should return to the organization to try and pull as many away as possible.
Dj, Thanks for those supporting words, I really needed that. My heart truly is in the Lord and you know I too lately have been angry at everything and until now from your reply to my thread I realized where it was coming from. Well now maybe I can once again be at peace with myself and with others. I was really heart broken to see my friend whom I respected as a best friend and a brother in the Lord. You he was disfellowshipped from the JW`s but his wife is still active and the hurt he shared with me of being shunned and to my surprise he does just what they did to him, I guess maybe he felt he needed to do that to out of revenge from there act of shunning. He makes regular post here and I kind of keep in touch that way. Im sure he will read this and he will know who he is and I want my friend to know that he is still my friend and I can now feel the pain that he once felt ans as long as I live he is still one of my few best friends....Thanks for your support and thanks to the others also. I was hoping to find some release by writting this post and it has begun... Thanks everyone and GOD BLESS US EVERYONE
DJ: I just came to the forum for a short while. It’s my lunch break. There are so many posts as you know, so why I opened this one I don’t know (but maybe I do) Reading your response, I started to weep. There are so many people here who have been hurt by their parents, and on some level we never really get over that. I have become so much stronger in the past year. I believe that it’s because for the first time I have allowed God to take over. My mother will always be a sore spot for me. She’s my mother and even though I know she will never be the mother I needed, I still grieve for her. She just doesn’t get it and that is so sad. She believes in the JW org, their truth, really not mentioning God. She does mention the creator but I wonder. Does she know who the creator is? It’s the Word, the Son. When I realized that last year I couldn’t believe it. As for me I don’t know what I will do regarding my mother. A dear friend suggested to pray beforehand, be civil, short, and not call too much, maybe once a month. I don’t know yet. I’m still thinking of writing her a letter. But as my friend reminded me, when I wrote her last time, quite a few years ago, my mother wrote back. My friend was so upset, she crunched it up. I think of the wonderful support I do have in my life and am so thankful.
KGB: I think a lot of people can relate to your pain. It does feel better to get it out. Sometimes it’s not always that you get good suggestions or advise, ( we do) but sometimes we get a better understanding who we are and what we are going through ourselves and sometimes (surprise) we get our own answers. This forum has been a blessing for me. I can talk to a number of my friends. We have great conversations, but they really don’t understand my frustration with the JW org. I guess I had always hoped that my parents would see the JW org for what it is and then we could all be a happy family. It’s not going to happen. But I do pray for my parents. That’s all I can do. Hopefully your friend will see the org for what it really is. God Bless you too.
I know. (((((((hugs)))))))). It is best for me and my family to show love but keep distance. They are very good at manipulation in day to day life. They do the same things in daily life that they do to the bible. I hope that you don't have to learn this the way that I have. I am amazed at the depths that they will go to in order to look good on the outside. The saying becomes so crystal clear of our Lord Jesus when he said that the pharisses cleaned the outside of the cup and left the inside filthy. Most people will never see just how they have mastered being deceitful. It is as if they are under a spell. They seem nice to people who don't really know them. I have been shocked again and again and again, yet I keep loving them. I need to grasp that loving them does not mean setting myself up as their victim on purpose. I guess that I just still want their love and I thought that it was still a possibilty...but is is not the reality. They have mastered the art of deception. It is very upsetting, I know...((((hugs))))))) love, dj
This just breaks my heart reading such things as this. I feel a deep sense of sadness to know that such an earthly thing such as this organization, can break up such a "godly" thing such as the family. Somehow, that doesn't make sense. There's no rhyme or reason to it... to take a perfectly good thing, and turn it into something shameful and hateful. There's no way in hell that this is loving OR compassionate, although, with their twisted reasons they make it sound like it is. Do they think in their right minds that people will come back to their twisted organization by shunning and treating them bad, just for the spiritual food? My mind thinks not. They are coming back because they miss their most important support systems. Not fair. I'm sorry this had to happen to you. I hope that you find peace and serenity in your mind when you work this out within yourself.
Constantly we are told that "blood" is all. Then this Organization comes along and goes counter to that. Doesn't seem to make sense, and it doesn't.
I am still going through this strange back and forth thing from pain to anger. Today I am angry. I actually feel happier when it is just pain because then I don't lash out. I am angry as all get out today....but I don't want to sin in my anger. Grrrrrrrr. I guess that I will never stop being amazed and shocked at the depths of the darkness in their hearts. I know that I need to break clean and at the same time I know that they still need my help to care for my dad. I love him and that is all I have left in my heart today. They have sucked me dry....pray for me?