Addison you have been hard wired to live this life whether you believe in it or not. And you are supposed to be grateful that not only did your parents raise you this way....... they want to be constantly thanked by you for their effort. So the best thanks is to attend meetings, get some time in and not doing something that would call for you being marked or DF.
The idea that you have grown up to question all of this...that you may not share the same beliefs or attitude as when you were baptized........ does not occur to the believing JW family.
I have come to the conclusion that there is no way for me to ever leave. Although I have some friends at work, my whole social structure are witnesses.
Of course there is a way for you to leave. The natural process is that children grow up, leave home and have a life of their own.You have to stay on the 'down low' (that refer's to any activity or relationship that needs to be discreet) as you make plans to leave.
To make a successful fade, of some sort, you are going to need time and distance......... privacy and emotional strength. If you want to pray to God for that strength do so.
What will be a big help would be to find at least one or two people you can be friendly with people who demonstrate good sense and maturity. Here's a clue.............Don't just focus on a compatible age........ look at everyone around you at work, or school, or in any setting that allows you to say "feel like getting a cup of coffee" after .....work, class, exercise etc. Be aware of all ages and experiences that could be available to you.
Also re-think things about your parents. In the future you will be paying rent. Right now your attendance at meetings, service and assemblies.....is the rent you pay to live under your parent's roof.
Tune out during the meetings if you need to....you won't be missing anything......... you've heard the same stuff your entire life.
Do have fun with your friends who are JW's. Out in service make sure it's not you who says "now that we got our time started let's go for coffee."
Protect your privacy on any device your parents, siblings or friends can access. More people get 'turned in' because a family member or close friend see's something they shouldn't.
Think out of the box when you cultivate a new friend.
Think about higher education....... even a 2 year degree from a community school can put you into the running for a decent job/ career.
You are part of a group on this and many other forums, thousands who are dealing with exactly how you feel and what you want to achieve.
It takes a certain level of maturity to deal with these issues. Most people never experience the religious hostility towards independent thinking.
We are here to help.....it's what we do.