When I truly believed the JWs had the truth, I usually reverted back to 'What's the point? I'm going to die anyway' as a way to justify for doing so-called bad things or not doing so-called good things in JW land.
- I shouldn't be watching this R-rated movie. (Why stop? I'm going to die at Armageddon anyway).
- I don't feel like attending the meeting today. (Why bother going? You're gonna be bird food come Armageddon time).
- Normal sexual urges? (You might as well pleasure yourself or bang someone because Jah-Jah is going to destroy you).
- Oh, no. Why did I write on my report that I did 20 hours of field service when only I did 4? (Oh, well. It doesn't matter because Almighty Jehovah will utterly destroy me).
Did you all think like this too? As pale.emperor nicely demonstrated in another thread, the guilt one feels for actions, and inactions, are inconceivable...unless you have lived through it.
It's no wonder I never advanced beyond sound guy and mic holder: my guilt ultimately held be back.
But...My guilt is also what led me to explore the truth about The Truth (You might as well do some research. You're going to die anyway).