FreeMamaof3, There is pressure from both sides. One side pressures you to believe something, the other side pressures you to reject all beliefs. I say, don’t listen to either side. Sit quietly by yourself. Breathe. Be open to your own thoughts, your own truth. Observe nature. Look at the stars. Consider your fondest wishes, dreams, hopes. What does it feel like? Where is your peace? If your peace flows from deep seated desire to know God, to understand what his will is, why we are here, what the future holds, then that’s a sign that believing in a greater being is your truth. On the other hand, if what flows from within you is to reject God and all that accompanies the God concept, then go with that. Life, and life after life, is a gift. If in your deepest soul you don’t want it, God will let you live your truth. You are free to live out your mortal existence until your body wears out or something intervenes and takes your life. Many atheists say they are content with that outcome. And perhaps, just perhaps, your decaying carcass will feed new life that may make a different choice.