After the worst introduction I could ever make on the forum I would like to reintroduce myself and make a fresh start on the forum and hopefully over time I will be able to redeem myself.
i have changed my user name which was over dramatic and ridiculous in the cold light of day but for transparency and to show I am not trying to hide anything I have adapted the original name and it now has a more positive feel.
After reading a lot of posts on this forum I am feeling more optimistic about my future.
i received a number of PM's on the other account. I have replied to a large number of them but still have quite a lot to reply to as some exchanges took longer than i thought. Please be assured I will reply and personally thank everybody who took the time to write.
I am not expected to be welcomed back with open arms and realise that it is going to take s long time, if ever, not to be viewed suspiciously, but hopefully some will see that although my introduction was at best clumsy, I am not a bad person and am genuine in my quest to leave the JW's and fade away.
So please can I start again?