Hi everyone. I'm a long time lurker, first time writer on this site. Years and years ago, I was on another ex-jw message board though I'm not sure if it's still around or not. I really enjoy reading all of your stories. Don't get me wrong, many are sad/painful but the reason I enjoy it, is because they help me realise I have made the right decision everytime I question myself. I am not disfellowshipped nor d.a. but I've been out for 14 years now. I have gone through all of the emotions, scared, anger, confusion and finally acceptance.
I was born and raised in America. My mum came into the org when I was 6 though my dad never took the bait. When I was 18 I moved to Australia for a jehovah's witness woman. Long story short, after 4 years of marriage ( yes i was one of those who married when I was 18), she cheated on me and moved her new boyfriend in.... this is where i started questioning my faith.
At the time this was happening, she scammed me out of money and left me in huge debts. I was penniless and about to be homeless. I told the brothers and they offered me much more than food,shelter or money. They offered me...... a bible study.. yes a bible study. I ended up living on the streets for a little bit. Stopped going to meetings. I got my life back on track ( thanks to a homosexual I met...... why did I say that point? You'll see why in a second)
3 years later, I bumped into a brother I knew before and he asked me why I don't go to meetings. I told him bluntly. I said' I needed food and shelter, you brothers offered nothing but a bible study... how was that going to help me? I ended up in the streets picking through garbage. Do you know who helped me? A homosexual!!! Yes, someone you guys condemn did more for me than my spiritual brothers". He apologised, which I give credit for... As far as how my family has accepted me now, that's another story if anyone is interested... but I'm glad to finally get a chance to talk to all of you... and just remember, you aren't alone