I think that all of us raised as dubs were embarrassed at one time of another because of our bizarre beliefs. I sure was. It was part of our jw culture. Being 'different' was to be worn as a badge of courage in jw-land.
As I look back, I think it would be honest to say that if I had truly believed with my "whole heart, soul, and strength" I would not have been embarrassed. But even a child's mind can often separate truth from fiction.