I would say parts of my life were.
Now I have 2 amazing daughters which was a major reason we left instead of just perpetually being a PIMO.
Being in for about 5 decades meant losing out on the life I should have had.
Has meant losing just about all my friends I thought I had.
I am messed up in many ways because of the cult.
I think the hardest is having really believed in Everlasting life, and now knowing I will die really die in a few decades.
Because of the 2 kids I have that are my world, I would not redo my life if I could though.