I guess it depends on what you mean by ruined:
No higher education.
Married very young (still married to same guy)
Spend thousands and thousands $ on donations, years of reg pioneering, Vehicle wear and tear
Lost a close family member to blood fraction/particle doctrine
Have a very close family member barely talks to me because I'm "inactive"
Watched heartache/pain from friends/family being df
So although I'm a bit miffed I don't think my life was/is ruined. I just want to show compassion and finish out my last 20ish years on this earth being a good/kind human being and enjoying what I can.