LOL I think I fit into the "whacked" catagory.
I used to feel that some of the younger people were somewhat standoffish. At the time I thought it was because I wasn't a lifetime member so there might have been some suspicion that I wasn't "strong" enough (even though I was a gung ho witless).
Reading the stories here, I thought that maybe it was because they didn't believe it themselves and were living a double life. It's interesting to realize that there was even a degree of jealousy that they never got a chance to live outside the borg. I never would have thought that in a million years at the time.
You're right about filling a void. I'd been feeling so bad for so many years that finding "the truth" *gag* was like getting a second chance at life. To be honest, becoming a JW and subjecting myself to the control of the bOrg did help me gain some self discipline. I guess it's the same sort of effect the military has on some people.
It really broke my heart when I realized I was deceiving myself once again, but as the saying goes "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."