The one aspect that i wanna point out, is that no elder ever came to speak to me or follow up on me after more than a year now
The elders are fairly strict on who can and who cannot go witnessing amongst the unbaptised, if you were caught smoking, that would definately count against you, and maybe they don't like your attitude, or feel, you haven't changed in their eyes, without knowing you personally nobody here could really comment on that.
Only ONE elder came to me and said his glad to see me back and attending the meetings. Since then not one other elder has even tried to speak to me, or said anything to me at that fact.
Are you still smoking? Makes no difference to me personally, but if you want to be a dub, then that's the first thing you'd have to stop. Non smokers can smell smokers a mile off. So if they even detect the slightest smell of smoke on you, there's no way they'll even attempt to approach you at the KH or at home.
But how am i suppose to show that i have improved or that i am not the same person OR to even answer up and taken back in the meetings when im not allowed to do anything. I maen, i attend meetings, sit there, listen, then go home. What much help does that offer me. I cant improve myself by doing field service cuz im not allowed.
The more significant question here isWHY would you want to go back, or be re-accepted? What's in it for you? Think about that seriously, do some research on the JW's from various sites on the Internet and see what's said about them, and look at the hypocrisy associated with the organisation.
Generally, the people that frequent this site won't encourage you to go back, most of us have left the organisation, for one reason or another, some have been disfellowshipped. So if you need reasons as to why NOT to go back, you'll find plenty here.
Your decision, but like I said there are many people here that will give you many sincere reasons to avoid them entirely.
Just ask questions.