I apologize for offending and upsetting people for my stupidity and paranoia that I had reacted wrongly over a thread where some kind and caring people was looking out for me and I responded unkindly to the thread with the thinking I was being made fun of because of my bad situation here at home.
I had been made fun of by some folks on another forum recently who said they hoped I lose everything and said mean things about me.
So it left me feeling awful and for a while I had harbored resentment that human beings could be so mean in treating me in this way.
So when I first saw the post, I wasn't thinking clearly, I reacted wrongly and made a false accusation that I was being made fun of because of my situation.
My judgement had been clouded by paranoia, depression and anger from what I had endured from mean people.
I allowed my emotions to get the best of me and I allowed it to cloud my judgement to the point that I totally misunderstood the post for it's intent and when I looked back and re-read the post again, I realized I reacted wrongly and what an idiot I am.
I reacted to it too fast, I never gave my brain time to adjust to the meaning of the post. I had a emotional knee-jerk response that pretty much later resulted in a foot in the mouth.
I was wrong. I should have stopped and allowed my brain to register the meaning of the post, but I didn't.
I can't think clearly as of late because I am depressed, frustrated, upset and worse of all, feeling suicidal.
One thing I have learned right now is never go back to the other forum. It's full of mean people and I don't want to ever look at that other forum ever again. I learned my lesson.
Another lesson is to never allow my emotions to rule over my mind because it can have a bad effect on me if I did, in which case the link above is an good example of what happens when I allowed my emotions to cloud my thinking.
I'm an idiot and I am sorry that I allowed my emotions cloud my thinking. I will do my best to never let that happen again.
Please accept my apologies.