I'm DONE with dieting!
DONE! DONE! DONE!
Went on my first "diet" when I was 12. That was my first step to nearly 30 years of roller coaster dieting, starving (sometimes literally for months), and unbelievable bingeing. Things got so bad that I checked myself into a hospital back in 1987.
Always the struggle....struggle...struggle...struggle...
Food (love and hate). Weight (Always hated, never loved)
Write my food down, don't write it down, carbs are bad, carbs are good, fat is bad, fat is good, fat makes you fat, don't eat after 6pm, drink this magic formula, never mix protein with carbs, you have a disease, only eat when your hungry, Atkins, Scarsdale, Pritkin, Beverly Hills, New York, ........blah, blah, blah.....
Then this winter I became constantly ill. Worst flu season in decades. In the past 4 months I have been ill probably 75 percent of the time. Because of my allergies I am especially vulnerable. It's been a very difficult time for me.
I have worked out over 20 years but I couldn't now. Just too weak. I just wanted to be healthy, again.
An epiphany and a relief.
So, I just gave it all up. The focus now is on my health. I want to be healthy not "thin". I have made a decision to stop the self loathing when I look in the mirror. I have decided that I am pretty damn lucky considering all that I have put my body through and it's been pretty damn good to me.
So, Jelly, I wish you well on your journey to be HEALTHY.