I have kids and I love them. I care for them, their future, and what they will grow up to be. I find myself day dreaming about them all the time. Wondering how school is, how that teacher acts with them behind my back, how they interact with other kids.
In short, I love my kids.
But what if? What if I didn't get the urge to get married based on principles brought on by a religion I don't believe in anymore? To me, marriage and kids go hand in hand (unless nature decides otherwise). So what if I never got married in the first place? Well, for starters, I know exactly what I'd be: A lawyer fighting for the rights of the people. Yeah, that's right. One civil action after another. I'd take what I need and make sure to use most of my time and resources for the kids growing up with dead beat parents.I'd have the best of both worlds: The wealth to do what I please and the charity work to bring meaning to my life.
And yet, would this have been my dream if I did not have kids in the first place? Before having my own kids, I didn't care about them at all. All I could care about was climbing the levels in the watchtower and basically enforce what ever some other man decided to teach.
Basically, I could have ruined my life and my kids have saved me. Or, perhaps I would have grown differently and would have fought the society much harder than I am now? I perhaps I would have become a party animal and drunkenly crashed my car in a tree.
All I can say now is that my life, while not perfect, is great. Sure I feel that my kids are stopping me from doing certain things, but I also can say that they freed me from watchtower and made me a better man.
All this to say that I somewhat can understand the idea of regretting to have kids, but you have to see things for what they are. We are not the same people we would have been in our alternate life. We are the product of our choices and environment.
would have had more time and money. The question is: What would I have done with it? Right now, I know exactly what I would do. But the man I am today has had the experience of a wife and kids. That man would not exist in the alternate reality.