I am now standing in the "ready to be remarried" line.
However, I am in stealth mode* till the "happy day".
*aka "inactive" in that I still talk the talk, but not ready
to walk the walk, except for not walking the unscriptual
d2d exercise. lol (see below discovery)
My story is somewhat similiar except my wife, baptized 1975,
of 31 years asked me to move out. I guess my spirituality*,
bapt 1981, was "weakening" hers. She refused the elders
strong recommendation that I be allowed to move back home
so I could exorcise proper headship. LOL, as she always had
almost total freedom in most areas of our life together.
*i started to sleep thru most meetings and almost never studied
the WT. This was after I voluntarily followed a CO's reguest
to move to another cong. as a MS to help out. I was the only
one from our cong. to make the move although 5 elders and 5 MS
were also asked. End of story: I was deleted by a superfinre elder
due to my daughters worldly friends. This eldo was practising medicine
without a lisense, or training!!!!! LOL, actually very sad. His
pioneering must have qualified him some how to diagnose and to
dispense sample drugs, which he took from the job where he worked.
Richard K. is his name. I wonder where is is now??? He would
be the one with decayed teeth due to the "times" we live in. Ditto
too for his wife and two kids. There seems to be many versions of
the "abuse" topic. I moved back to original hall but had lost all
motivation and never reached out again after advancing to the
point of having the "privedge" of giving a public talk. LOL.
I was still in "lala" land when I was sep. from my wife and until one
is placed into a situation, divorce in my case, others do not have a
clue to how bad, desperate, suicidal one can become. I went to
the elduh that I studied with prior to 1981 dunking and was told he
"did not want to get involved" as he was friends with both of us.
Now that the divorce, mutual decision, is final he is telling "others"
that I am to be considered BAD ASSociation due to the fact that I was
the "one" seeking the big D. I stayed in bed for the next three days
and cried my heart out after hearing this news. Depression sucks!!
and is damn dangerous. How does he know the details when I was
in the middle of it and still not totally sure what the real "truth" is.
Some of it due to my being a real jerk, probably too often. LOL but true.
So nice to ssoooooo sure of oneself. In any event I just could NOT
beleve that a loving just god would want me to live alone the rest
of my life. So I started studying all the WT stuff and started asking
lots of real questions, not the prepared study article ones. The more
I studied WT and NWT stuff the more stuck I became due to circular
reasoning, etc. Then I saw in the United book that the WT said the
NT was primarily for the GB, I mean the 147,666, ah the FD&S, would
you believe the ............ (fill in the blank).
Then came a simple finding!!!!!
I started comparing word for word the WT Emphatic Diaglott to the
WT Kingdom Interlinear Translation and discovered some of the "Trooth".
In Acts 20 when Peter was telling, only the FD&S, that he taught them
"publiky" and in your (big) houses not "house to house" I started to see
new "lite". The E.D. renders the greek word for house as houses. However,
the KIT renders it as house to house which comes directly from the
much vilified by WT King James Trans. Now why would they do such
a thing?????? Follow the money, just follow the money. It takes just
one discovery and the whole darn thing collapses, I should have built
my house on real stuff.
Also, in reading the intro to both these books I finally understood how
unoriginal and varied the greek is, plus all the translations that obviously
have there own agenda. I was shocked and very depressed, not at all
joyous to discover all this. It has been almost a year down this road
but I finally am coming to grips with my situation and trying to grow a
tiny bit in the process.
This board, wonderful posters that is, are a huge resouce.
They are there when you need them, but I also see what happens if I
was to cry wolf too loud and too often. There are times when we do
need a kick in the .......... and that way we can keep our eyes on reality.
To sum things up, it is such a knee jerk reaction for the elduhs to say
NO NO NO you can NOT blah blah blah. As A.E.N*. might say: "it is
much easier to get forgiveness that permission", unless you are dealing
with the elduhs or my wife for that matter. LOLOLOLOLOL
That is the real problem, no real genuine love and esp. no forgiveness.
Best wishes on your journey and pass on to others the "real news"
of the "steath" class / wot me worry??
*A.E.N. is a friend of the very funny Farkel. Check him out when he posts. LOL