This afternoon I was sitting in my kitchen watching my three year old son playing. He was humming to himself while playing w/trucks. I watched his little hands as they moved the toys around, I listened to his sweet little voice. Even his little ears and chubby cheeks were cute. He looked up at me and said "I love you up to the sky, mommy" and my heart melted.
As I sat there I thought about how blessed I am. To have such a wonderful child and know such a pure love.....so innocent. I thought about my own childhood. Wondering if my mother ever had moments like that. Wonder if on any day did her life stop like mine did today? Did she pick me up, and when she hugged me did she smell my hair? Did she feel like her heart was gonna burst for knowing such joy?
I am not the only parent on this board and I am sure that I am not the only one who has ever had these overwhelming feelings of love for a child. This was not a sad occasion......even when my thoughts turned to my mother. I can change things, I can stop the cycle....my children will never know conditional love and abandonment. They will always know that they are special and someday I will tell him the story about the day that my world stopped just long enough for me to bask in the joys of motherhood.