Hey all,
Left the org approx. one month ago, so I'm freshly out and still working my way through the depression of losing my three best friends... but anyway, not important, what I was wondering was if any of you got this line from the elders the night you went to meet with them... so here's my story, take it or leave it.
I'm a homosexual, I've known since I was young, not raised in "the Truth" but converted when I was seventeen, four years ago... Anyway, I suppressed it, etc, until I decided that I wanted to leave the org. partially because I was tired of lying to myself and a body of people, and partly for doctrinal issues that I disagreed with... (i.e. shunning... ) So I went ahead and wrote the elders a letter, told my four best friends that I was going to be DFed because I committed fornication and was unrepentant, and a few days later I got a call from the Elders... "let's meet and talk about this" i get in a really friendly "nothing's wrong" voice. I'm like "Sure, maybe you guys can help me work through the issues, maybe I'm wrong, at the very least I owe the org. one last chance." So I show up at the hall... against the wishes of all the "worldly" friends I have who were saying "Dear God, Don't go because you're gonna get it and you don't even see it." Me, I'm like "Eh, the elders are great guys, they wont do anything mean to me, It's all gravy don't trip." etc.
Anyway, I get there, and they immediately start by tactfully calling me names... "Unrighteous" "doomed" "abomination" everything short of FAGGOT, basically. Then I got asked a line of really personal questions, i.e. about the Sin I committed, etc. too graphic, which I dodged and said "what does it matter, fornication is fornication." then I get this line of crap about how I am disowning the Faith for what I did (thank god for that) but this is the kicker.. one Elder said that I could no longer pray to Jehovah because he would not listen to me." Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... Tell me... Not only do I get shunned, but I can't pray or talk to any other JWs minus the elders... so what the f--k? I assume that means that the only encouragement I get since Jehovah isn't even on my side is from the World, and oh no (sarcastic) we all know where that leads! (Family life improves, friends come back in flocks saying how much they missed you, etc.) At that point, anyway, I decided that the org. was totally full of s--t and that i had made a major mistake on going down there. They dismissed me after two hours of being yelled and preached at. (mind you, I was in great standing in the cong when this happened... never ever reproved, in the Theo School, Aux. Pioneer, etc... Never a bad moment... just decided they were wrong. Fact is, a year ago an old old friend of mine from HS was DFed for being unstable... she's BIPOLAR! How the heck is that supposed to help her??? Being shunned only made her suicidal. I want to know what you all think. It's funny, because I wasn't ever going to be an "apostate" but they sort of... sort of PUSH you in that direction, don't they? I hate it because everytday everytime I go somewhere I run into an old witness... and it's like "damnit, go away, I eat here too so you can leave." Funny how they accept you with open arms until you decide that you disagreee with something.
Also, did anybody else notice that at least if you were there int he last six months how PREACHY stuff was getting. That's what ultimately did me in. Or how about this phrase from the sisters "The society recommends/emphasizes..." insert phrasiology here. When is it Bible based and when is it the Society? Well, my conclusion, currently, is the WTBS makes a few good points here and there, and although they don't worship a single man, they worship an organization... they DEIFY the damned organization, and that's what makes it a cult. The shunning, as well. So, questions comments?? appreciate some input, as I am one pissed off ExJW.
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