Dear MarieK, welcome to this forum.
You'll find many, many here who have experienced what you're going through now - the fear of posting for the first time on an "apostate" website (yes, those that the WT would have you believe are Satan's work), the anger of finding out that you have been duped by an organization whom you entrusted your life with, and the frustration for the wasted years serving this unworthy slavemaster. You'll find many here who will relate with your story and will offer you support. It won't be long until you feel more comfortable in expressing yourself, when you start finding out that the people who post here are just like yourself, who, one way or the other, woke up to the cold hard "truth about the truth" and could never look at the WTS the same way again.
This forum opens the door to many excellent resources about the WTS - the kind of information that the GB so desperately warns you against because it's so damning for them.
It's excellent to know that your husband is on your side as you both wake up to reality. That will be a great asset in the future, trust me.