I am more than just happy to hear what the outcome was.You my friend, are one lucky lady. 3 years ago my cousin, who had married a JW and was studying, killed himself. I was with him the night before, and he joked with me about suicide. I wish so badly now, that I had had the insight that your guardian angel did. I hold the elders who were working with him during his rough time directly responsible.
When I first left, I felt like a number had been done on my head. Unfortunately I found solace at the end of a bottle and a joint. I did not reach out though. I have a page in a music book, where I was writting down all the thoughts that were consuming my mind one late night. At that moment I had finally decided I was going to die. Simply because I wanted to finally find out what happens when you die. I cleaned up around the house and wrote one simple note. Luckily I passed out before I could finnish. For a while I thought I was a coward because I didn't have the guts to finnish.
I kept the pages I wrote that night. Things have been so much better since. I've learned to appreciate every small detail about life. I know that while there is nothing clinically wrong with me, I did hit an all time low. I have never had a time like that since.
I can sympathize with you..... and I am so happy that you are here today to tell us your story. The amazing thing is, that despite all the bickering and insults, this place is truely wonderful. Most of us don't know each other, but yet still care and have developed relationships. I think that's beautiful....
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