Have you heard the song "Stuck in a moment you cant get out of" by U2 ? I was listening to this today and it got me thinking..........
I have decided that I will no longer be contributing to this forum.... at least for the meantime. This forum has helped me in every way that I need to be helped, and for that I thank everyone who played a part in this.
I guess I have achieved my goal now. When I first came here, I was absolutely fascinated with what I read - I did my own research, and I found out the "truth" about the truth - I had mixed feelings of shock, anger, and for the most part - complete bitterness. This bitterness ate me up for almost a year. I also, in small ways felt guillty for leaving the org, but now, thanks to this board, I am absolutely over the guilt feeling, hence my thread of late: "When did you realise that everything had changed?" - things have changed for me now, and it is time to focus my life on more important things.
This board has become stale to me. The constant unprovoked attacks on other board members, resulting in pages and pages of pointless warfare is not only stupid, but extremely negative. It wears me down. Lately, it seems there is more threads on this than anything else. What could be more of a waste of time? Picking arguments with complete strangers and then picking arguments with the moderators who object to your violent name - calling. This is no longer helping me, nor many of the newbies whom I have conversed with who are also looking for answers.
Lifes too short for dwelling in the past. Im now directing myself to life "Beyond the borg" - its a whole new world out there and all ive been doing is sitting on this board!!
Bye everyone, I have come to really like most of you, and wish all the wonderful things to come in the life ahead of you..
simon, I would like to thank you for changing my life - You are doing a great job.
I realise my departure will not really be noticed, as I wasnt exactly a heavy poster, but I still wanted to have my say about why Im leaving. Maybe ill be back someday, when it calms down a little and becomes the positive and therapeudic place I once knew.
LOVE AND PEACE