I know you may not like this, but the comments brought back to mind the "Kids In the Hall" skit where they are dressed as french whores. One who looks particularly sad is confronted by the other who says, "Is something wrong? and the entire context is:
I wonder about Tony?
Is he wondering about me?
I wonder what Tony is thinking?
I wonder what Tony is doing?
Could he be coming to see me?
At which point the enquirer says, "All this talk of Tony it is driving me crazy. Shut up about Tony!"
At this point they are quiet. A man bursts into the room and says what is going on?
I was thinking about Tony?
Is he thinking about me?
On and on it goes with every conversation going back to thinking about Tony. Somewhere along the way you get the distinct impression "Tony" dosen't give a rats ass about them, but all they can do is worry about him.
Writing and worrying about "grey eyes" will not make him a better person or make him the person you need to fulfill your life. Your "Tony" ain't going to make the deal work. You have beautiful writing skills, why not expend your efforts on a real man who you could share the rest of your life with you?
Pretty eyes and pretty words will never compensate for a person who treats you like a queen and makes you happy.