Searcher: re the pronunciation of the Biblical name for God, it is well-documented that "Jehovah" is a hybrid form. For example, this excerpt from Britannica Encyclopedia 2002:
"The Masoretes, who from about the 6th to the 10th century worked to reproduce the original text of the Hebrew Bible, replaced the vowels of the name YHWH with the vowel signs of the Hebrew words Adonai or Elohim. Thus, the artificial name Jehovah (YeHoWaH) came into being. Although Christian scholars after the Renaissance and Reformation periods used the term Jehovah for YHWH, in the 19th and 20th centuries biblical scholars again began to use the form Yahweh. Early Christian writers, such as Clement of Alexandria in the 2nd century, had used a form like Yahweh, and this pronunciation of the tetragrammaton was never really lost. Other Greek transcriptions also indicated that YHWH should be pronounced Yahweh."
Even the WTS admits that "Jehovah" is not the most accurate rendering, but they defer to "common usage" as justification for their continued employment of that form of the Name.
Truth2Me: I relate very deeply to your ambivalence about rejoining the Society. Born in '52, baptized in '62, Bethel in '69, I was first disfellowshipped in 1979 (part of the post-75ers). Reinstated in '81 because I missed my family and friends (each and every one JWs). I swallowed my reservations and doubts, and for a while it seemed to work. Studied Greek, Hebrew and Latin, theoretical physics, sociology, philosophy, comparative religions, etc, etc. Lost myself in my own little world. I never really developed any social skills, and am still very much a loner. Df'd again in '00, just couldn't take the self-doubts any more. I am just now beginning to find people I can relate to, here on this board.
It is, of course, your choice. But, as ISP stated "...its very hard to consider going back to the Org." My only advice would be that you continue to keep your eyes VERY wide open.
Good luck to ya!
edit to add: RR, that is VERY interesting! I was not aware that anyone else used the NWT. Thanks!
Edited by - onacruse on 11 August 2002 17:25:56