Beans,
It's nice having you here, even though I'm just starting to get to know everyone. I think a 1,000 posts is a pretty good number, especially since you've only been on since Oct.'01. I can only hope to have that many in a year's time! It's great that you have something like this forum to deal with the thoughts you've had, especially since you were out for so long before dealing with them.
Congratulations--I'm looking forward to reading more of your posts in the future.
Becky