As the name says, I'm back for more. I used to be fairly active on here but have been away for years and am back for more.
First, a bit about me. I'm a 36 year old man. I was born into the JW's. I never got baptized but that doesn't mean I wasn't super active back when I was in school. One thing led to another with my family and I left when I was 20 when I got married to a non-JW. I thought they were probably right but had just had enough of their crap that I didn't care anymore. A year or two later my wife got pregnant and I wanted to raise my son right so I started to move past that for his sake. What ended up happening was I finally figured what a load of crap all the JW stuff was. In a nutshell, I went out of my congregation in a glorius ball of flames and haven't looked back. Seriouslly, it was awesome and I have no regrets about it. I moved on and built a pretty good life for a while there. Then, as life often does, everything fell apart. I got diagnosed with kidney failure, celiac disease, got in a car wreck that broke my leg, got laid off from a pretty darn good job, and my wife got cancer (er she's all better and just fine now) all within the period of less than a year. Since then, I totally dropped my old career (even with various places offering larger and larger sums of cash to come work for them), went back to school, and just finished my nursing degree last week. An interesting life that I have no regrets of when you look back at it, even if it has been only 36 years.s
So what brought me back here? The need to vent some. I'm out of the "truth." So far out of it that it's not even funny and I'm never going back. My family joined back in the 40's. My dad heard how he would never get to see the end of elementary school before the new world came. Now, his grandchildren are past that age and "the end" is no closer than it was all those years ago. I've been trying to reconnect with various family members (mainly my sister, my nephew who I was like a dad to when he was a baby, and a cousin I was always so close to and loved dearly). Its part of the joy of Facebook that I was able to reconnect with these people. Putting it lightly, these reconnections have not gone well. How the @#$* do you talk to people that put stuff up about how the new world is so close when their entire lives have been wasted waiting for the same things that their parents have been waiting for but haven't seeen? How do you deal with someone you've loved your entire life that looks down on you because you've spent years learning how to care for the ill instead of wasting your time cleaning the bathrooms of stadiums where the people who think the same way will poop for a few days?
For that matter, it isn't even the fact that the people I care so much look down on me because I couldn't buy into the lie anymore. The thing that really bothers me is the fact that they still base their lives on such utter and complete BS. They can hate me for whatever reasons they want. As much as it may suck, I can deal with that. The part that really bothers me is watching them waste their precious and wonderful lives the same way I did as did our parents and even grandparents. I watch them pay the price that generations before have paid. It is a very steep price that takes a large piece of their beautiful lives that has already robbed so much from so many others and yet they are so blind to it all. I hate that more than I will ever be able to express.
At the same time, however, that's why I'm back for more. If there is ever a group of popele that can relate to what I am feeling, it is you all. I need to have a group of people that understand what it is I am saying. You can explain it to people who have never been a part of it but it will never be the same as talking to people that have experienced such things first hand.