Bafh-- I'm worried about you making comments like that. Have you thought about seeing a therapist? You sound at your wits end. Hope you feel better soon. I just wish I could say something to encourage you.
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I have seen a therapist - am currently seeing a therapist. I'm almost ready to get some meds if I can't fight through it.
Instead of saying something like, "I'm sorry, but I have no intention of going back," and having them completely freak out - I agreed to go to the Sunday morning session. Any recommendations?
Can you smuggle an illegal (not just "banned") object inside?
("Ask and ye shall receive!" Class)
Ok I feel better now, you had me worried. Well, try the meds and see if they work. I'm on meds for bipolar-- meds don't fix everything but they can make life tolerable. Be patient with finding the right meds that work, sometimes you have to try more than one. You may only need them temporarily until you feel better.
Have you thought about joining Toastmasters? Might give you more confidence-- I think that's what you need is some self confidence.
Thtat is a good idea. Maybe I do need more confidence. My therapist is always telling me "i'd invite you to a dinner party. You're smart, funny, blah blah blah" I feel like she is just making that shit up. Maybe feeling out of place is just how it is; does everyone feel that way, or only me?
There was a post somewhere where an elder said "We want a broken person."
This "religion" thrives on guilt and fear. No one is accepted unless they feel worthless.
If you have skill, talent, education, ability - you need to be knocked down.
As a parent, it is the exact opposite of how I want my children to feel.
For those who feel God is our parent, He does not want his children to feel like they're shit.
Bafh ... don't give up, some days are crappy!
Try asking someone out for coffee, who you are not
particularly interested in....other than they are a nice
person. There will be little or no stress involved.
You will make a casual friend & learn to relate &
relax. Then when you do meet someone who turns
your crank.....you will be used to the routine!
You are important ...so treat yourself well.
All the best to you.